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- "In life God doesn't give you the people you want, instead He gives you the people you need. To teach you, to hurt you, to love you, and make you exactly the way you should be."

Just finished my last paper of undergrad. Edited it and everything. It’s finally hitting me. I have one more exam left and I am done. Is this a dream?


After a month of being busy, when I say busy I mean it. I was basically responsible for filling in for my mom and dad plus being a student at UofT and this is basically the busiest month ever of school with no breaks. I can honestly say I hate being busy, I’m mentally and physically exhausted, this whole month and even last month, no the whole winter I’ve been getting sick on and off, especially with fevers here and there plus a couple of colds. I know my immune system sucks…despite eating healthy and working out, it’s still bad because of my thyroid problems. But anyway, yeah after this month I realized I’m not the type of person that likes to be busy. My mind is already elsewhere normally but more so when I busy. That kind of lifestyle really doesn’t suit my personality…I prefer taking my time to do things and enjoying the present moment, Being busy is like I have to get this done and then this and then this…your mind is always set on the future…I felt like I missed so much while running around endlessly. I haven’t had any alone time, I haven’t been able to sleep properly. I would wake up after two hours of sleep thinking what did I forget to do yesterday and what do I have to do today. It is not fun,

I feel a bit relieved that my parents are back but my mom is not in the best condition, so I’m doing as much as I can to help out around the house. Cooking and cleaning has become a habit, I think my OCD intensified during this time because I look at my fridge and I have the urge to cook everything to empty it out and then I look at clutter and I have the urge to clean it. After this month, I honestly don’t want to have any kids or maybe just not have any boys if they are going to turn out like my little brothers. And my little sister, that’s a totally different story. I don’t even know what to do with that girl. She never comes home. Like if you want to leave, leave. I have my parents asking me everyday where she is like I’m supposed to know. I’m trying to freaking graduate at UofT, this torturous damn school, I don’t have time for that.



You could be right in front of me and I wouldn’t notice you.

It’s like you never existed.

No traces of you anywhere…I’m starting to forget how you even look like.

*drools* your food always looks so good!


you’re such a good cook kate!

Aww thanks<3 I try~~ Hehee, but fun fact, I actually don’t really like to cook but I don’t like eating out more, so I’d rather cook. LOL

Sometimes it’s not a ‘happy face’ that determines the character of a person but the truth behind their words.


I’m so hungry but also so tired. To eat or to sleep. Sleep it is…because I don’t have the energy to cook.

When in doubt, just do it!

When in doubt, just do it!

When in doubt, just do it!

When in doubt, just do it!


If I can sit down with you at a coffee shop for several hours and talk to you about everything and nothing… that’s when you know I consider you a close friend.

Or if you were Kate, that would mean labelling a tree at a neighbourhood park and naming it ours during our elementary school days, visiting it often over the next few years, and talking there for hours.

What I’m saying is that we’re due for a tree talk, Kate.

Because I don’t want to have any regrets.

Reading Week.

So I’ve done nothing productive this reading week. I am gonna go insane this weekend trying to finish 4 assignments. That’s 2 papers, an essay proposal, and a summary. I have 3 days. I think I can do this. Oh did I mention that I haven’t done any of the readings for these classes. Oh and I also have a quiz to do but I guarantee I will just end up winging that. Sigh.

I am freaking graduating…must focus…now is the time to focus…oh who am I kidding…kids, learn from me and do not procrastinate. 

…It’s loving that leads to love.

—Book of Meditations